A List of Crazy Thoughts
What if I tripped and fell
Or stood up and yelled
Out something obscene,
Climbed a tree right to the top,
Or stood naked
On a field in the starlight?
What if I told you what I think
When I disagree
Or screwed up my courage
To tell that stranger
“I like your dress”
Or to ask
“Where did you get that scarf?”
I saw a woman wearing just such a scarf –
Bright reds, oranges, greens and blues –
I knew where it was from;
I’ve been to the store.
I liked it and wanted to tell her so,
It was on the tip of my tongue
But then I just watched her walk away
And I looked out to sea instead.
A few weeks later, I saw it,
the scarf the lady had worn,
But I bought a different one.
What if I got up in the middle of a meeting
And walked out,
Or fell asleep right there in my chair,
Or shared that awfully important thought I had
In the end
Have been silly?
What if I said “this is all a ridiculous waste of time?”
When, really, it was?
What if I looked up that friend I had once,
And found her and told her that she touched me
In some indefinable, friend-type way,
And who cares if she doesn’t really remember me?
Or maybe she does and it would be good to hear.
What if I did all those crazy things
That come to me on a whim
When I think “I couldn’t!”
But what if I did?